::HE always with me::

"..do NOT get to breakdown..do NOT get to fall apart.."

~..just need someone to hold me when i cry,

and let me cry without saying a word

that is more than enough..~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::song's lyrics is sometimes deep::

That's not the beginning of the end

That's the return to yourself

The return to innocence.

Love - Devotion

Feeling - Emotion

.

Don't be afraid to be weak

Don't be too proud to be strong

Just look into your heart my friend

That will be the return to yourself

The return to innocence

.

If you want, then start to laugh

If you must, then start to cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny

.

Don't care what people say

Just follow your own way

Don't give up and use the chance

To return to innocence

.

That's not the beginning of the end

That's the return to yourself

The return to innocence

.

Don't care what people say

Follow just your own way

Follow just your own way

Don't give up, don't give up

To return, to return to innocence.

If you want then laugh

If you must then cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny.

p/s: u should really be able to distinguished what is what by now. no one is going to wait forever. back to the basic, recheck your aim. things wont settle into place if you keep avoiding and ignoring it..isnt it too soon we get old, and too late we get smart??..but after all its gonna be worth it~!~(of coz if u choose the right thing, and make the right decision)~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::home::

"Home"

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

'Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::5qu4r3 r00t 0f thr33 ~ dave feinberg::

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::i'm sorry::

i swear, in a glimpse,

i can see dissapointment in his eyes..

i'm sorry for him~!~

i once saw his eyes glow with proud

and today, the very same eyes..is full with different emotion..

and i asked myself..

"what holds a man from crying??"

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::hello malaysia::

entry ini ditaip beberapa jam sebelum the best journey on earth (pnjam ayat status haziq) bermula... dan bermakna berakhirlah penantianku utk pulang ke tanah air yang ku chentai~!!~actually takde lah tangkap cintan sangat dengan malaysia, it just that my family is there..so excited la nk balik malaysia kn...cube kalau family kau di LONDON~(london ini dipilih dgn tujuan)..ada kau kisah nak balik malaysia???~HUHU

jadi malam ni aku akan bertolak ke christchurch...menjadi "blanketgirl" semalaman di airport christchurch, dan mengambil penerbangan ke bali pada jam 0600 esok...singgah di sydney dan kemudian bermalam di bali sebelum meneruskan perjalanan ke malaysia pada hari sabtu jam 2030~!!~..i'll in 4 country in less than 3 days~

NW ZEALAND~AUSTRALIA~INDONESIA~MALAYSIA ku yg permai~

(rse kagum dgn diri sendiri)~!!!~

yeay..semangat nk balik

walaupun perjalanan ini aku rasa amat menyusahkan~!!

SO..secara rasminya,

2 hari lepas (17 nov)..genap setahun aku dan kawan2 yang lain berada kt bumi new zealand ni...in someways, cam tak percaya la jugak..hehe..kalau kumpul air mata kan..cukup la rasanya kalau nk buat amek air semayang...hehehe...

to all mara cohort 2, victoria university of wellington..

naim, haziq, iqbal, jiji, hzim, nana, hana, ijan, aju, sal, mimi, and anis ..

congratz, we made it~!!~

end of the first year~!!~

and get ready for the next journey in the next stage of our life~

hurm...i got to go now.

nak mandi and bersiap utk ke wellington airport..

pray that i'm gonna have a safe journey~

for those who are still "stuck" in wellington city...(aju..sal..ijan)

...diucapkan...BERTABAHLAH..

..hahahhahaha..(gelak dgn sejahat mungkin)..

get ready for house inspection and truskan packing okeyh~!!~

its not so long...just another week to go before u guys reach malysiaku yg permai

...KEH...KEH...KEH...KEH...KEH..

~wslm..adios~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::the bunga api @ harbour::

petang tadi berniat nak gi harbour sebab cuaca yg sgt indah and rindu kt burung2...tapi bila dah pikir dalam2, niat tu di batalkan and terus bergerak ke library..rase cm sedar diri sikit sebab exam dah dekat..huhuhu..

sepanjang kat library tu, as usual pilih spot yg paling best skali..dekat tingkap and nampak the whole wellington pnyer view. inilah library yang paling aku suke skali dalam hidup aku... bila penat2 blaja, toleh jer sebelah nmpk pemandangan yang chantek..tgk plak depan, nmpk plak ada org lain termenung jugk tgk laut..keh3.. pastu da ptg2 sket, tgk kt harbour, ada org tgh main kayak, and speedboat..and ada bunga api sket2..and then wondering lagi..ada ape kt harbour arini???cm meriah jer...(dlm hati menyesal tak gi harbour)..

tyme masuk maghrib, hati cam meronta2 suruh balik...tapi berjaya ditahan lpas dpt tahu yang ada firecraker punyer pertunjukan kt harbour pkl 9 mlm..alang2 da malas nak gerak harbour, baik stay jer kat sini...view dari sini pn cun jer..dan aku gi la smayang kt surau..

balik jer dari surau...tgk2 meja ak da penuh dgn mat2 n minah2 omputeh

..."WEYH..SUKE ATI KORANG JER CURIK SPOT AKU YANG BEST NI YERK~!!!~~KORANG BLAH SKARANG~!!!~"...

kata2 itu hanya terluah jauh di dasar hati ku..

(tindakan sebenar ialah amek beg...and pegi kat member2 lain)

...sobbbbssss....sdeyh..xsuke3..*bce dgn gye iklan cat yg ada kuman2 tu*.

.sdeyh ok..amek port aku...tumbuk kang~!!~

nasib baek maskyd ni sabar~*weeee

then..pertunjukan tu pn start la dgn meriah nyer...bunga api dari atas kapal..kat tgh laut..kat harbour...wow weeee.....chantek2..

tgh tgk2 bunge api..tetibe teringat kt angah~!!!~

klu angah ada kn bes..boleyh angah amek gmbr bnyak2..chantek2..

ucapan utk angah..

"angah mas tak de camera besar~!!~sobbbbssss"

abes jer pertunjukan tu..trus kemas2 barang and balik rmh dgn laju2...

dengan harapan angah tgh online...yess, angah online...trus bgtw..

"angah..td ada pertunjukan bunga api mcm yg kite gi aritu..tp..mas xde camera besar..sobbss"

dan angah menjawab..

"xpe..camera kecik pn xde hal"

erkk...

sungguh jawapan itu tak memberangsangkan..

..phewwww...

sbb camera kecik pn aku x bwk g library

~cmne maskydd xtahu ada "the bunga api show @ harbour" mlm ni td??~

~huh..patut bwak camera gi sume tmpt~!!~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~