::home::

"Home"

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

'Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::5qu4r3 r00t 0f thr33 ~ dave feinberg::

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::i'm sorry::

i swear, in a glimpse,

i can see dissapointment in his eyes..

i'm sorry for him~!~

i once saw his eyes glow with proud

and today, the very same eyes..is full with different emotion..

and i asked myself..

"what holds a man from crying??"

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::hello malaysia::

entry ini ditaip beberapa jam sebelum the best journey on earth (pnjam ayat status haziq) bermula... dan bermakna berakhirlah penantianku utk pulang ke tanah air yang ku chentai~!!~actually takde lah tangkap cintan sangat dengan malaysia, it just that my family is there..so excited la nk balik malaysia kn...cube kalau family kau di LONDON~(london ini dipilih dgn tujuan)..ada kau kisah nak balik malaysia???~HUHU

jadi malam ni aku akan bertolak ke christchurch...menjadi "blanketgirl" semalaman di airport christchurch, dan mengambil penerbangan ke bali pada jam 0600 esok...singgah di sydney dan kemudian bermalam di bali sebelum meneruskan perjalanan ke malaysia pada hari sabtu jam 2030~!!~..i'll in 4 country in less than 3 days~

NW ZEALAND~AUSTRALIA~INDONESIA~MALAYSIA ku yg permai~

(rse kagum dgn diri sendiri)~!!!~

yeay..semangat nk balik

walaupun perjalanan ini aku rasa amat menyusahkan~!!

SO..secara rasminya,

2 hari lepas (17 nov)..genap setahun aku dan kawan2 yang lain berada kt bumi new zealand ni...in someways, cam tak percaya la jugak..hehe..kalau kumpul air mata kan..cukup la rasanya kalau nk buat amek air semayang...hehehe...

to all mara cohort 2, victoria university of wellington..

naim, haziq, iqbal, jiji, hzim, nana, hana, ijan, aju, sal, mimi, and anis ..

congratz, we made it~!!~

end of the first year~!!~

and get ready for the next journey in the next stage of our life~

hurm...i got to go now.

nak mandi and bersiap utk ke wellington airport..

pray that i'm gonna have a safe journey~

for those who are still "stuck" in wellington city...(aju..sal..ijan)

...diucapkan...BERTABAHLAH..

..hahahhahaha..(gelak dgn sejahat mungkin)..

get ready for house inspection and truskan packing okeyh~!!~

its not so long...just another week to go before u guys reach malysiaku yg permai

...KEH...KEH...KEH...KEH...KEH..

~wslm..adios~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::the bunga api @ harbour::

petang tadi berniat nak gi harbour sebab cuaca yg sgt indah and rindu kt burung2...tapi bila dah pikir dalam2, niat tu di batalkan and terus bergerak ke library..rase cm sedar diri sikit sebab exam dah dekat..huhuhu..

sepanjang kat library tu, as usual pilih spot yg paling best skali..dekat tingkap and nampak the whole wellington pnyer view. inilah library yang paling aku suke skali dalam hidup aku... bila penat2 blaja, toleh jer sebelah nmpk pemandangan yang chantek..tgk plak depan, nmpk plak ada org lain termenung jugk tgk laut..keh3.. pastu da ptg2 sket, tgk kt harbour, ada org tgh main kayak, and speedboat..and ada bunga api sket2..and then wondering lagi..ada ape kt harbour arini???cm meriah jer...(dlm hati menyesal tak gi harbour)..

tyme masuk maghrib, hati cam meronta2 suruh balik...tapi berjaya ditahan lpas dpt tahu yang ada firecraker punyer pertunjukan kt harbour pkl 9 mlm..alang2 da malas nak gerak harbour, baik stay jer kat sini...view dari sini pn cun jer..dan aku gi la smayang kt surau..

balik jer dari surau...tgk2 meja ak da penuh dgn mat2 n minah2 omputeh

..."WEYH..SUKE ATI KORANG JER CURIK SPOT AKU YANG BEST NI YERK~!!!~~KORANG BLAH SKARANG~!!!~"...

kata2 itu hanya terluah jauh di dasar hati ku..

(tindakan sebenar ialah amek beg...and pegi kat member2 lain)

...sobbbbssss....sdeyh..xsuke3..*bce dgn gye iklan cat yg ada kuman2 tu*.

.sdeyh ok..amek port aku...tumbuk kang~!!~

nasib baek maskyd ni sabar~*weeee

then..pertunjukan tu pn start la dgn meriah nyer...bunga api dari atas kapal..kat tgh laut..kat harbour...wow weeee.....chantek2..

tgh tgk2 bunge api..tetibe teringat kt angah~!!!~

klu angah ada kn bes..boleyh angah amek gmbr bnyak2..chantek2..

ucapan utk angah..

"angah mas tak de camera besar~!!~sobbbbssss"

abes jer pertunjukan tu..trus kemas2 barang and balik rmh dgn laju2...

dengan harapan angah tgh online...yess, angah online...trus bgtw..

"angah..td ada pertunjukan bunga api mcm yg kite gi aritu..tp..mas xde camera besar..sobbss"

dan angah menjawab..

"xpe..camera kecik pn xde hal"

erkk...

sungguh jawapan itu tak memberangsangkan..

..phewwww...

sbb camera kecik pn aku x bwk g library

~cmne maskydd xtahu ada "the bunga api show @ harbour" mlm ni td??~

~huh..patut bwak camera gi sume tmpt~!!~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::perspective is a beautiful thing::

"One day, the father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the express
purpose of showing him how poor people live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son ,
'How was the trip?'
'It was great, Dad.''
Did you see how poor people live?' the father asked..
'Oh yeah,' said the son.
'So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?' asked the father.

The son answered:
'I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end.
We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night.
Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight.
We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless. Then his son added,

"Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are."

Isn't perspective a wonderful thing?
Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for everything we have,
instead of worrying about what we don't have.

"Appreciate every single thing you have."

"don't wait for a miracle to happen, go and create one"

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::CIA Agent memberi laporan~random shot::

sudah bermula hari perlunya membuka nota2 lain, setelah penat mengadap paper statistic..optionnya cuma ada 2..either calculus or discrete math..i choose discrete math, supaya otak boleh bekerja secara logic dan aku tak perlu memegang calculator yang mahal itu...(selalu berasa bangga dgn calculator yg berharga rm400 itu..hehhe)..

terfikirkan sesuatu..
when math is not about the numbers, when non-math people cant read the truth tables, when math cause the maps to have colours and when galileo galilei use his philosophy to explain math....I'M SO DAMN PROUD TO BE A MATH STUDENT~!!~..even i dont understand a thing about that 'graph colouring'...weee~~

sedang menyelak-nyelak notes discrete smlm, my mum called...setelah berbual-bual (tntang bnyk topic2 santai, dan juge sudah tentu tntang kepulanganku ke malysia, tnh air terchenta), kemudian, aku cuba membuka topic itu pada emak...BERJAYA~!~(CIA agent maskydd ini sgguh mantap dalam mnjalankan tugas) ... tanpa kusedari, ayah juga mendengar pertanyaanku itu,..

dari pertanyaanku, jawapan mak mudah, iaitu, "terlalu awal untuk menilai, mak tak boleh nak ckp "..
dari apa yang kufahami, buat masa sekarang,
...jawapan untuk itu bukan semudah "YA" atau "TIDAK"..
...dan jawapannya sudah pasti bukan sekadar mengapply pemikiran logic ..
...dan jawapannya juga tidak perlu pada statistic,tidak akan ada 'decision tree' yang perlu dilukis
..kerana ia berdasarkan penilaian dan pemerhatian..
without a fixed possibilities, and the number of trials is only one..n=1..

JADI, jika tersalah membuat keputusan, takkan ada percubaan kedua...

dari pertanyaanku yang sama, jawapan ayah pula, "ayah rasa ok, tapi kena tengok la jgk, janganlah jenis 'hati buah...'.."..(ak xingat hati buah ape yg ayah ckp, tp mak ada explain maksud perkataan tu)..

dari jawapan ayah pula, aku tak tahu penilaian ayah berdasarkan apa..tapi aku pasti, ayah juga mahukan yang terbaik utk anak2nya..naluri ayah pun, kadang2 boleyh pakai jugak..hihihi..btol x??..

tapi, ada kata2 mak yang terkesan dihati, "yang penting adalah doa.doa utk yang terbaik"..kadang2 aku mcm terlupa tentang ini..kekuatan doa, , besarnya keAgungan Allah, yang tak pernah jemu untuk mendengar rayuan hamba2-Nya...hebatnya bantuan Tuhan yang Dia turunkan dalam berbagai2 cara...

"ALLAH MEMBERI WALAUPUN KITA TAK MEMINTA, JIKA BTUL2 MAHU, POHONLAH PADA DIA DENGAN DOA..DIA PASTI MEMAKBULKAN, DAN DIA AKAN MEMBERI YANG TERBAIK...."

p/s: CIA Agent maskydd selesai melaporkan~!!~saya sudahpun bertanya...sekarang giliran kamu pula~

~let me sing, and do sing with me~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~