::hati yang tak tentu rasa::

have you ever had a  thought that u shouldn't do something, but your instinct and feeling kind of forcing you to do it?? that is what happen last night. there i was loitering around BP Mall  until I stepped into Big Apple.with no specific reasons~i don't even feel like eating any doughnuts at that moment~ but somehow i asked for a box of 12 pieces anyway with an instruction for the waiter to choose whatever flavors that he thinks are good. while i was waiting, someone crossed my sight, and i told myself, that guy is so familiar, he was supposed to be someone that i know, but surely for kind of person who have a short term memory like me, names are not meant to be remains in my mind. and there he was walking away off the shop.

after settling all those unimportant business of mine, i walked towards the car which was parked right in front of the coffee house, Old Town, and there I saw that guy again with his friend, sipping a cup of coffee of course. while my mind was still thinking who he should be, my instinct, my eyes and my mouth works faster.....and curiosity get the better of me.....my eyes shoot him a look, which happen he was also looking at me...and without hesitation, i heard my own voice....
me: are you from KMS?
~the guy stood up and come towards me..*yeay, i'm glad that gentleman still exist*
guy: yes i am.
me: you are my senior i believe, IB??..but i'm so sorry, i can't recall your name.
guy: yup, doing IB...and its ok..you are the batch that went to New Zealand right?..what are you doing here?
me: yes, i'm working now.at MRSM BP..and u?

..............................~and the conversation goes~........................

orang tua2 cakap, kalau mata berdenyut2 kita nak jumpa orang jauh..i believe it today.
p/s: dari pagi mata berdenyut,
and the box of 12 pieces doughnuts..what happen to them??it ends up being given to a student who celebrated her birthday yesterday. I'm glad that it cheer her up of celebrating sweet 17 in the middle of SPM.
 so, moral of the story, follow your instinct.. =)...sometimes it makes someone else happy, and it will also manage to make you happy...=)

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::back when::

Don't you remember
The fizz in a pepper
Peanuts in a bottle
At ten, two and four
A fried bologna sandwich
With mayo and tomato
Sittin' round the table
Don't happen much anymore

We got too complicated
It's all way over-rated
I like the old and out-dated
Way of life

Back when a hoe was a hoe
Coke was a coke
And crack's what you were doing
When you were cracking jokes
Back when a screw was a screw
The wind was all that blew
And when you said I'm down with that
Well it meant you had the flu
I miss back when

I love my records
Black, shiny vinyl
Clicks and pops
And white noise
Man they sounded fine
I had my favorite stations
The ones that played them all
Country, soul and rock-and-roll
What happened to those times?

I'm readin' Street Slang For Dummies
Cause they put pop in my country
I want more for my money
The way it was back then

Give me a flat top for strumming
I want the whole world to be humming
Just keep it coming
The way it was back then

Back when a hoe was a hoe
Coke was a coke
And crack's what you were doing
When you were cracking jokes
Back when a screw was a screw
The wind was all that blew
And when you said I'm down with that
Well it meant you had the flu
I miss back when

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::brunchbar::

aku busy..percayalah...ak memang busy, tp aku pun tak tahu aku busy dengan apa. nak kata aku pulun belajar, result aku still macam dulu...mungkin usaha belum cukup atau rezeki ber'result' cemerlang belum lagi ditakdirkan untuk jd milik aku. nak update blog mmg tak ada masa..dan tak ada idea..terasa macam buang masa..(o_0)..

....aku sekarang tengah berusaha keras untuk memastikan degree aku hujung tahun nanti nampak cantik sikit. itu pun kalau di izinkan Allah. aku nak grad...!!..aku tak tipu.mahu dengan sangat...smpai kalau belajar mmg boleh leleh air mata, sebab aku rasa cara belajar aku tak effective, tp tak tahu kat celah mana nak improve...(T_T),,mengeluh banyak2 pun tak guna kan!!dah dua tahun dah kt sini, dulu aku enjoy jadi budak first year yang tak tahu apa2. even selalu homesick, habiskan masa dengar lagu berkaitan hujan melayan perasaan, tapi seriesly seronok...nak undur masa, mmg tak boleh!!

~I HOPE DAYS COME EASY AND TIMES PASSED SLOW~

tapi banyak sangat benda dah belajar.tentang manusia, tentang kehidupan. be out of the box, and think out of the box. aku sekarang percaya, kita akan boleh berfikir dengan cara lain, bila social circle kita berubah, with a condition, don't be so pessimist!! jangan sentiasa rasa diri betul..allow things to run through your brain and figure everything out in the most realistic way. in a perfect world that we try to create, everything will be perfect. but somehow, there is no perfect world. people makes mistake, you make mistake..lots of mistakes! see Allah grace in every mistake. have faith...keep going on...regardless of what people are saying, you know how much you have change, and to what extend you have change...changing is always good when it is for the better~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::HE always with me::

"..do NOT get to breakdown..do NOT get to fall apart.."

~..just need someone to hold me when i cry,

and let me cry without saying a word

that is more than enough..~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::song's lyrics is sometimes deep::

That's not the beginning of the end

That's the return to yourself

The return to innocence.

Love - Devotion

Feeling - Emotion

.

Don't be afraid to be weak

Don't be too proud to be strong

Just look into your heart my friend

That will be the return to yourself

The return to innocence

.

If you want, then start to laugh

If you must, then start to cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny

.

Don't care what people say

Just follow your own way

Don't give up and use the chance

To return to innocence

.

That's not the beginning of the end

That's the return to yourself

The return to innocence

.

Don't care what people say

Follow just your own way

Follow just your own way

Don't give up, don't give up

To return, to return to innocence.

If you want then laugh

If you must then cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny.

p/s: u should really be able to distinguished what is what by now. no one is going to wait forever. back to the basic, recheck your aim. things wont settle into place if you keep avoiding and ignoring it..isnt it too soon we get old, and too late we get smart??..but after all its gonna be worth it~!~(of coz if u choose the right thing, and make the right decision)~

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::home::

"Home"

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two

“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me

'Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m done

I gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~

::5qu4r3 r00t 0f thr33 ~ dave feinberg::

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun,
as 1.7321
Such is my reality,
a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

~i'm not good, but i want to be better~